Dilemma is life

Being alive itself; if it is mostly difficult, however easy it may seem, but suicide is just so much more tedious, then suffering is inevitable. Sexual pleasure, the worst thing ever. Its denial is nothing short of torture. And masturbating the shit out of life is just so desperate. Onto idealism; the source of most unwarranted sadness. Without it, we'd all be fucked. But it badly fucks up some of us. Damage and fear, and corruption, reality as inherent injustice. It's no wonder everyone's looking for meaning where there is none. A dilemma, being able to see things. Even worse, imagining more.